Well for one it’s that serious, then my advice is you need to look for some professional help. Second man to man, shit happens. But if I have to say this I’d say… there are many people that can hurt you, so don’t do them a favor and hurt yourself. Family is family and they can be a bitch, i can’t tell you the number of times my family was making me upset.
And having a boyfriend… there are a lot of people out there for you, even if you had 10s of thousands break ups (take it from me). You’re gonna have it better, don’t let these small upsets break you off your path